on happiness.

I am thankful for everything I have, I really am. But how does one achieve 100% happiness? Is it through wealth? Is it through health? Is it through love? I don’t know, really. I’m not wealthy, probably not the healthiest person alive, and I’ve never experienced “love”. I’ve seen it in people… but I’ve never experienced it myself. I believe it, sure, but nothing like that has ever happened to me. Maybe it’s some kind of special number that gets you to 100% happiness, like 2/3 for example. If you’re wealthy and healthy, but not in love, you’ll be fine because you’ve achieved the 2/3. You’ll still reach full happiness. But what if you have all three traits? Does that make you some kind of god amongst men? I’d imagine that some of the richest and healthiest men in the world that never marry claim to be completely happy. Hell, if you’ve got that much money, any woman will satisfy whatever sexual or emotional need you may encounter. Though that’s not love, it’s enough for some people. And that’s what’s interesting. If I had the money and the health, I think I could live on for a long time just having my way with women. It could be because I’ve never experienced love… But maybe for these other rich guys, maybe it’s because they want to avoid love all together because of past relationships. So… am I truly happy, or is my happiness fading away and am I actually becoming sad as my over-indulgence continues? One could make the argument that me thinking my happiness is increasing is a disguise that my own conscience uses against me to hide what’s really happening with me: I’m actually becoming sadder. I don’t even know how I came up with the ‘three traits of true happiness’, they were just the first ideas that popped into my head. Am I happy at the current moment? Let’s look at it through the traits: damn, I don’t meet any of the requirements. So does that make me depressed? Never. Why? Because people without those things can achieve true happiness… or can they? I wouldn’t call myself “happy” anyway, I’m pretty self-aware and critical of the world around me, and I believe it’s a weakness to be happy all of the time. I’d call myself content, which in my opinion is a low-key form of happiness that is more realistic. I figure that people who’ve achieved ‘true happiness’ through the 2/3 traits adapt to a mindset where they’re pretty much happy almost all of the time: what exactly do you have to worry about then? Maybe I’d be fully happy, then. If I can achieve the true happiness equation, maybe then I’d stop being so content and critical. Who knows though. This is just one of my many ramblings of many, so don’t take this too seriously…